Thursday, June 27, 2013

July Be Over

Today I am CD28-13DPO... I know it's only June but I am really looking forward to July being over, like ASAP so we can live and exhist in August when we are planning on doing our first IUI.

Tuesday, June 25, 2013

Here is for wishful thinking

It has been a hectic month. My mother (not so smoothly) checked up on our fertility progress this weekend, abruptly in mid-conversation. I let her know that the forecast seems to still be on us requiring artificial reproductive assistance. She responded, "don't worry about it, after everything settles down it will happy. The body is great like that" but I could hear in her voice that even she is starting not to believe it.

I should be testing this week and awaiting the arrival of a new cycle. This new cycle will be the last unmediated cycle I have for a while. 


Saturday, June 15, 2013

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Still Ovulating in Rhythm

Only two months to go until our first IUI!! Only July stands in our way now!

Garr is still on his fertiliaid for men! I'm so proud of him and I'm on my Ovaboost, Pregnitude cocktail :-)


Looking forward to the next few months!!

Oh I forgot to mention! I'll be ovulating soon! Thanks OvaCue :-)


Tuesday, June 4, 2013

One Call

New person; same tests
So two weeks ago, Garr did the same workup they had me do in February. As soon as we get these results in we should be preparing for our first intrauterine insemination!! It took my labs three months to come back in so I guess that will put our results coming in around August and our first IUI being late September/early October.

Which is mighty close to the stresses of putting on our wedding production so I called our nurses to see if we can do an IUI before the lab results came in. Maybe one without stimulation to make up for the fact that we'll be starting earlier.

So realizing that we may have to wait another three months before we get the opportunity to try I called the clinic to request that we try an IUI cycle before his lab results came back.

To our surprise it only took them three days to process the same labs for him that took them 3 months to process for me. Congratulations we have the green light! After talking it over with Garr we have decided to wait until August anyway for our first round. It puts us close enough to the wedding that we can keep it a secret and it is after two weeks of me traveling a lot for work.

So it is official, we will do our first IUI in two short beautiful months!

Monday, June 3, 2013

How Lucky We Are to be Infertile!

This is not to discredit anyone else journeys to parenthood but us couples trying to conceive have something special. To deliberately plan out our children to be aware of the deliberate act that brings us our positive pregnancy tests. We get an opportunity to demonstrate love for our partners and future children on a level unfathomable to those who never got the chance to try to conceive.

I was feeling bummed about not conceiving for so long and my fiancé gave me his take on our glorious little journey.

He told me that we are lucky to need assistance trying to conceive. It made him be a real part if the process. Instead of a bout of pleasure; maybe phenomenal, maybe mediocre, maybe out of rage, maybe with rose petals and candles; he and I will hold hands knowing the exact moment we conceive. Our child will be a deliberate act, thoughtful and planned. He is just as involved as I. Us both with understanding that we are attempting to create a life in that moment.

We have sex all the time sometimes beautiful sometimes lazily but our babe will never be a "consequence" of our actions but a revelation of a mommy and daddy's dream to be parents. When we conceive that dream and understanding will be the front runner of our thoughts. This could be it! We could become parents in this instant. Months of planing makes our little ones to be very very lucky.

Luckily for us we need medical assistance to even have a chance at conceiving. What a blessing! When we embrace it's selfless, it is full of passion, it's two people in love. When we walk into the doctors office we are perspective parents, on the same page, putting forth the same effort, walking down the same journey, completely in love.

image from http://www.fertilehealing.com
When I mention it to my friends they explain their fears about getting pregnant because, to them it's the moment they have to stop living for themselves and start living for other people. For us, we stopped living for ourselves primarily since we began this journey to conception. So there is no big huge transition, everyday we eat, work, and prepare to receive this gift from God; this is our prenatal life we just haven't conceived yet.

I just thought I'd share with you all. Sometimes I feel really bummed that it will never just happened for us but my fiance made me realize the outstanding opportunity to bring children into the world in complete awareness. I wish I were much better with words but I hope everyone here gets the opportunity to realize how romantic our journeys truly are. Many couples don't get this opportunity to be so aware of when our children are conceived.

I am so in love with this man it brings me to tears that I never acknowledged the beautiful moments we are sharing. We are all so lucky to be here even if it doesn't feel like it when a new cycle begins.